I know I normally post on Fridays, but I wanted to wait until COSine was over before blogging, though I wasn't sure that I would have something good to blog about. Boy was I wrong. I attended COSine last year and enjoyed myself, but I stuck to my comfort zone and just observed everything. I was a new mother, I didn't really want to talk to people, and I hadn't known where my writing was going. So I sat in the audiences, took notes on some of the panels, and kept to myself. This year however, Fate had a different idea for me.
Sunday I attended two panels with my daughter, who by the way was chatting it up with the man behind us and then got mad because in the second panel someone behind us had Cheetos...and she wanted some. Having an adorable 13 month old child causes some people to flock to you. "Oh, look how cute! How old?" On and on, it's kind of like grocery shopping with her. It took me forever to get place. Not that I mind and she loved the attention.
Saturday Minion came with me and we had a blast, sat through some panels, she helped me get past some spots I was stuck in with new plots and she gave me line edits back. This is where things got interesting. She had other things that needed to be done, so she left. On Saturday COSine hosts a mass book signing and a raffel. I planned on sticking around only for the raffel and then head home to tuck my daughter in. (She stayed home with daddy.) Kathryn and I started talking and she had asked if I met anyone there. From there she proceeded to introduce me to all the local authors. Things just kind of grew from there. That night I ended up at the hotel bar with a bunch of them, socializing and networking and they all had great things to say.
The next day while attending a panel someone quoted this, "Life begins at the end of your comfort zone." (Neale Donald Walsch) It hit me then how true that was. Saturday evening was the most terrifying thing for me, but I had accepted that if I wanted to be an author, if I wanted to do this I needed to step out of my comfort zone and work through it all. Had I not stepped out, I never would have made the connections that I did. If Kathryn wasn't the person she was, Saturday night never would have happened for me. I can't let fear an nervousness rule me. I look forward to the day that I will be on panels with these fellow authors at other conventions. Thank you to everyone that made me feel welcomed, and especially thank you to Kathryn for pulling me out of my comfort zone and teaching me this lesson.